The Epiphany Of Black Pipe- Mind Terrorist
Damn this is some bullshit. I say as I stare at my reflection in the bathroom mirror. I knew this shit was going to happen I say out loud as I splash some water across my face. My son looks up at me and says”Daddy that’s a bad word you shouldn’t say that”. As I gather my thoughts and remember that I have a son who is always listening to my conversations. As I look in the mirror and look into my eyes I hear a voice deep within me speak
Nomad: I told you this shit was going to happen. What you gonna do now Big Man? Are you going to man up or are you going to keep quiet and complain from the sidelines
Damon: Now is not the time for this shit. I am angry and frustrated. I don’t have time for your bull crap.
Nomad: So tell me Big Man when is going to be the time. You see they out here killing us for sport. Shit when is it going to be the time. They gonna have to kill somebody close to you and then what you gonna do then speak up. Nah we got to do something about this shit now
Damon: And what do you think we should do go out there and torch our neighborhoods like they did ..:namespace prefix = st1 ns = “urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags” />Newark and Watts when they killed Dr. King. Riot like they did in LA when they acquitted the cops in the Rodney King case. All that stuff does is destroy our already impoverished neighborhoods. You see that gentrification is already moving us out why help them.
Nomad: Man fuck that shit you talking about. If shit has to burn so be it. Let that shit burn. Rioting and destroying shit is just a part of the years of frustration that we are feeling. Sometimes they need to know we are tired and that shit has to stop.
Damon: But we are going to destroy where we live. There is no benefit in that. Countless jobs, homes, and lives will be affected by that. It is meaningless and pointless. There are other avenues in which you can express your frustration. We can picket and protest that has worked in the past.
Nomad: See that’s why I don’t fuck with your punk ass. This is 2008 that we shall overcome shit is played out my nigga. You ain’t Dr. King and I’m not Jesse Jackson. I ain’t marching no motherfucking more. You see all that marching we did for the Jena 6 and homeboy still ended up going to jail. We got to tear shit up to let these motherfuckers know we mean business. No Justice no Peace
Damon: I don’t see the benefit in destroying you own neighborhood. That is counterproductive if you ask me. You are hustling backwards.
Nomad: See here you go with that college bullshit. Ever since you graduated you got soft. It’s like they brainwashed your ass. Where is the militant motherfucker that I use to know? Did they castrate your ass when you were in school? Did they take your motherfucking heart? We are at war out this bitch. Either you are going to do something progressive and force change or we run you the fuck over when we start taking what we want.
Damon: You can never question my heart. I am all about change but it has to be positive and beneficial to everyone. Your way too many people will get hurt unnecessarily.
Nomad: Now you see you don’t understand revolution. Without struggle there is no progress. There always has to be martyr’s in a revolution. You act like you forget that. Maybe your ass needs to be a martyr. Talking like a pussy I don’t see any other purpose you could serve than to be a martyr.
Damon: You are talking nonsense. I serve a purpose everybody doesn’t have to be a soldier. There are other roles people can play during war. And you talk as if this war is upon us. I don’t see any signs of any damn war you are bugging out again.
Nomad: Hmm that sounds just like something a pussy would say. Nigga man up and be a man. Grab you black fatigues, your black hoodie, your black combat boots, and black skully and get outside and take action.
Damon: I am past that stage in my life. I have too much to lose now. I have a family. I can’t do that wild stuff anymore. I’m a grown man. I have sons to live for.
Nomad: Hasn’t this verdict shown you that your sons are at risk. If you don’t stand up for them now it maybe too late later. If you love them like you say you’ll provide a safe environment for them now by letting society know that Men of Color aren’t going to stand by and let you take them out.
Damon: That is nonsense. The only thing violence brings is more violence. I stand up for my kid’s everyday. I teach them that in order for you to be anything in life you first have to be a man. I am a man because I take responsibility for my actions. By doing that stuff that you are talking about I’m giving power to another person and holding them responsible for my actions and what I do. Nah my dude that’s not going to happen I’ll take the more positive route and protest through marching and petition’s.
Nomad: Hmm yeah college definitely made your ass soft. No matter how much money you got and degree’s you get if the don’t respect you and what you represent they will take advantage of you. The only thing these oppressor’s respect is force. You have to fight fire with fire. You are just a nigger in their eyes an educated nigger in a suit.
Damon: Fighting fire with fire will only get you burned. You have the thinking and ideals of a terrorist. You are dangerous in your thinking. I can’t allow you to try to trick me or convince me to live in fear of something that isn’t happening. Fall back playboy get your mind right
Nomad: Yeah whatever nigger. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
As I shook my head to clear my head I looked down at my son and when he smiled at me I knew that I had made the right decision.
Nomad
